What is the club you beat yourself with?
Take a moment and consider your internal dialogue. Do you ever notice thoughts like these:
- What’s wrong with you? You should be more like her.
- He’s so successful. If you had half a brain, you’d be where he is.
- You deserve this bad thing that’s happened.
- You’ll never be as good as other people.
You wouldn't say these things to your worst enemy, but somehow, some voice in your head has picked up a habit of beating you into submission. You berate yourself into being better. . . smarter. . . . kinder . . .thinner. . . more lovable. . .We all do it on some level. Welcome to your shaming inner critic. This inner critic goes after your vulnerabilities—your pain, your limitations, your insecurities, and your struggles—and parades them in front of you in cruel and ultimately unproductive ways. Often this takes the form of demoralizing comparisons to others.
What might surprise you is this: Your inner critic is trying to help. In its misguided way, this part of you actually thinks it's motivating you. It thinks that if it stopped telling you how much better you could be, you'd become mediocre, lazy, pathetic, or unlovable. Take heart in knowing that you can set healthy boundaries with your shaming inner critic!
The next time you struggle with shame, false guilt, and self-doubt, try this exercise:
1.) Notice your self-talk. Write it down. Be honest with yourself. Get it into the light. What are the terrible things you sometimes say to yourself?
2.) Get curious about this shaming inner critic. How long has it been with you? Did you internalize its voice from someone else? Or is it an old habit you've not been able to break? Getting curious about this critical voice helps give you distance from it.
3.) Befriend this inner critic. Doing so may sound counterintuitive—but like a hurting child who is acting out, this part of you needs your love and some healthy boundaries. Extend it your appreciation for the ways it’s been trying to help you be your best self.
4.) Write a holy reframe. Now, help your inner critic change its tone and harness all that energy in productive ways. Next to each terrible thing this voice whispers to you, practice a holy reframe. Here are some examples:
- "You should be more like her" becomes "I want to be my best self."
- "If you were better, you'd be where he is" becomes "I'm not where I want to be yet. But each day, I'm going to do my best to take the next step."
- "You deserve this bad thing that's happened." becomes "I've made mistakes. And I'm also a beautiful soul made in God's image."
- “You’ll never be as good as other people” becomes “No one can take my place.”
Your inner critic needs to learn that berating you isn't the answer. It needs to be introduced to the gentle, powerful ways of Jesus.
A shaming inner critic keeps you stuck and unproductive. When you separate out from it by naming it for what it is, you gain perspective. You see more clearly the simple truth of an insecurity or a struggle. You can then take that next step. God doesn't yell at you like an abusive parent. He comes alongside you and joins with you in loving, gentle, truth-filled ways that are always life-giving.
A gentle tongue can break a bone. —Proverbs 25:15
