Have you ever experienced “church hurt”? As a counselor, I’ve seen the various wounds that people experience from unhealthy leaders while attending church. Here are some examples of church hurt:
• A single mom whose church promised to stand by her, then disappeared after she got a divorce from her abusive husband
• A kind-hearted woman who was told that she would “burn in hell” if she made friends with the “wrong” kind of people
• A young couple forced out of their church after they stood up to a narcissistic pastor
• A man who opened up about his struggles only to be told his depression meant he lacked real faith
I’m a psychologist, and I’m also a follower of Jesus. I believe faith and psychology can work hand-in-hand. So, one of the problems that irks me the most is when a church leader in a position of authority misrepresents or distorts someone’s view of God by acting abusively.
Church hurt can cut you to the core. Much like our parents, we see church leaders as having authority. We look to them to lead us and shepherd us well. We trust them with our hearts and with our areas of vulnerability.
When the people whom we trust manipulate, shame, reject, or use others for selfish gain, the effects are extremely painful and confusing. It hits us where we are most tender, causing us to question both God and our own sense of worth. In some cases, the pain can cause to wonder, “If church can hurt me so deeply, then what does that say about God? Who is God anyway? Can He really be trusted?”
In addition, church hurt can damage how you think about yourself. Rationally, you might know the pain is not your fault. But, parts of you can still wonder if you did something wrong. Toxic shame enters your mind, and you might start wondering, “If that church represents God, then how could they be wrong? What if I am the problem? What if I deserved what I got?”
Church hurt is soul crushing.
I’ll be honest. The process of healing from church hurt is not easy. It can be hard to face the pain. It can be hard to disentangle the God who loves you from the misrepresentation of God by an unhealthy leader. Understandably, many people get angry and stay bitter. Others decide to leave the church all together.
But, I believe there is another way through. I have walked this path with countless individuals, and it is some of the most gratifying work that I do.
If you’re struggling with pain of church hurt or if a church misrepresented God to you through toxic, abusive actions or words, please know you are not alone. You are still in the center of God’s love AND God’s justice. God hates church hurt, too (See Matthew 18:6).
Here are four steps that I recommend to heal from church hurt:
4 Steps to Heal from Church Hurt
Step 1. Define Church Hurt as Abuse
Church leaders hold power. But, great power includes great responsibility. If someone misuses their power, the result is defined as “abuse,” which means to act in a manner to cause “bad effect or for a bad purpose; misuse” (Oxford Languages Dictionary). Church hurt stems from experiencing someone else abusing their power.
A church has power to gather, encourage, and heal God’s beloved people. On the positive side, church can help you:
- Encourage yourself and others (1 Thessalonians 5:11; Hebrews 10:25)
- Give thanks and marvel at God’s wonders (Colossians 3:16)
- Grow in humble, honest self-awareness (James 4:8)
- Pray with other people (Acts 2:42)
- Grow in wisdom and knowledge of God (Ephesians 3:10)
- Care for those who are most vulnerable (James 1:27)
In contrast, when a church leader abuses his or her power, it has the opposite effect, such as causing:
- Discouragement and disappointment in yourself and others
- Feelings of anger, confusion, and bitterness toward God
- Toxic movement toward rigid self-denial and self-hatred
- Bypassing or denial of pain and emotions (vs. bringing them to God honestly)
- False ideas about God (vs. the God Jesus embodied)
- Further wounds on the most vulnerable
The first step toward healing, then, is to name the church hurt as “abuse.” Here are some examples:
- He attacked the young girl that God made. That was an abuse of church power.
- She taught me I wasn’t worthy of God’s love. That was an abuse of church power.
- They told my secrets to others and called it prayer. That was an abuse of church power.
- He told me that my abusive husband’s behavior was my fault. That was an abuse of church power.
- She said my depression was evidence that I lacked faith. That was an abuse of church power.
The purpose of this step is not to harbor resentment. Instead, the initial process of healing hinges upon you naming the wrong behavior that occurred.
Step 2. Separate the Church Hurt from God’s Character
Some aspects of God’s character are crystal clear throughout the Bible. If you feel busted up or beaten on by a church community, it is important to step back for a moment and remind yourself who God is apart from the hurtful actions. For instance:
- God loves justice, mercy, and humility. (Micah 6:8)
- God is for the poor in spirit, the grief-stricken, the humble, the broken-hearted, and the peacemakers (Matthew 5:1-12)
- God stands against the proud, and for the humble (James 4:6)
- God is love (1 John 4:7)
- God’s presence shows up as love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23)
You might also look to the life of Jesus and notice how he interacted with various types of people. He was clear about his stance toward individuals in these three categories:
Abusers of Power:
Jesus gave his harshest words to religious leaders who judged, criticized, oppressed, and left people out. These folks created cliques and always attempted to maintain their power. If you’re not convinced that Jesus was harsh with unhealthy religious leaders, read these passages: Matthew 23, Mark 9:42, Luke 11:43–44.
The Sufferers:
Jesus drew close to people who were hurting, wounded, sick, and suffering. He didn’t blame them for their suffering, nor did he marginalize them. Instead, he encouraged them, helped them, and treated them with respect. Read some of the life-giving stories of how Jesus interacted with suffering in these passages: Luke 17:12–16, John 9:6–7.
The Marginalized:
Jesus also showed a soft spot for those on the outs, such as “sinners,” rebels, and the people who others tended to despise. For example, do you remember the woman who got caught in adultery? Jesus purposefully intervened to protect her. In another story, Jesus first revealed his true identity to a woman four times divorced. She was from Samaria, a place equivalent to “the wrong side of the tracks.” Read more stories of Jesus siding with marginalized individuals in these passages: Mark 2:15–16, Luke 7:36–39, John 4:25, 26.
As you identify God’s desire to help hurting people, you will find a powerful ally. God is on the side of those who have suffered, not on the side of those who abuse their power.
Step 3. Recover Your Power
If you’ve experienced church hurt, it can cause you to feel helpless and alone. In order to reclaim your power, you need to set boundaries with those responsible for the pain. Then, you also need to heal the agony inside your own soul. But, in order to heal, you’ll need the help of safe people. Here are some ways to start that process:
Prioritize your own emotional recovery first.
It’s not your job to have empathy for those in power who hurt you. There might be a time for forgiveness and/or reconciliation way down the road. But, it is far more important that you separate yourself out from the harm and restore the parts of yourself that were wounded.
Seek support outside of the church.
If your church culture is toxic, it’s crucial to get a healthy perspective from someone who is outside that environment. For instance, contact a counselor or trusted adviser who can help you stay clear and grounded as you name the church hurt and find your way to solid ground.
Wait to communicate until you have a strong support network.
Once you are clear about the nature of your church hurt, you might try communicating boundaries with the leaders of a church community. But, please do NOT take this step alone.
It is wise to enlist help to ensure that you don’t get pulled back up into a web of toxicity and experience more harm. If you do decide to confront a hurtful leader, make sure you have support. Then, pay close attention to the response. You will quickly learn if that person is messy-but-loving, or someone who is truly toxic. If it’s the latter, it is probably time to find a new church community.
Step 4. Reclaim Your Spiritual Practices
As you begin to reclaim your personal power, you can also reclaim some spiritual practices. But, just like any physical wound, certain situations may rekindle more pain. With emotional pain, there may be specific words and practices that seem normal to everyone else, such as prayer or listening to a sermon, but they bring up uncomfortable, painful feelings within you. That’s because those practices got twisted due to the leader’s abusive actions.
For example, if someone betrayed your trust while claiming to “pray” for you, their actions could make the idea of prayer feel uncomfortable. Likewise, certain Bible verses may have been used to manipulate you, which might bring up painful feelings when you hear those passages again.
In those situations, notice the feelings and be gentle with your reaction. It doesn’t mean that you don’t love God. In fact, it’s the opposite! You are developing important skills to help you discern when to trust versus when to sound the danger alarm. You’re learning how to discover Jesus apart from the leaders who misrepresented him. You can reclaim your spiritual practices from the ones who stole them from you.
Turn the negative into a positive by redefining old harmful words into new terms. For example, think of “prayer” as just a loving way to talk with God. You could even keep your eyes open and look at something beautiful or comforting that reminds you of God’s love. Talk to God out loud, listen to soothing music, walk with a friend, or write in a journal. When several people are gathered in meaningful, honest connection, God is there with them.
Above all, God is against “church hurt.”
God desires to meet you in the tender places and provide healing. He doesn’t force, control, or manipulate. He wants to restore the goodness in your life that was taken away by an abusive leader.
Begin your healing process by defining church hurt as abuse, separate the hurtful behavior from God’s character, recover your personal power, and reclaim your spiritual practices. You are never alone in the miraculous power of God’s love.
For further reading:
3 Signs of Bad Church Leadership
3 Steps to Healing Painful Emotions
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Thank you for writing and sharing this!
Thanks, Macea. I appreciate your encouragement.
I appreciate you naming “church hurt” as a valid experience. You put words to things that I’ve experienced – although in different ways. I’d say disappointment with the lack of leadership or refusal to address problems as my biggest church hurt. The wife of a pastor came to me to report his infidelity and spiritual hollowness. With her permission I reported this to his supervisor, but was belittled and made to feel like I was exagerating, and making things up. I then went to the supervisor, or who I thought was the supervisor to the pastor’s supervisor to report the problem, and discovered that in our church system, there is no accountability structure for my pastor’s supervisor. So much disappointment. And, in the midst of all this, the associate pastor was sidelined and he resigned. And still those responsible, won’t admit their responsibilty. But I love my church friends. It’s hard to separate from the place of pain when your lifelong friends – who had nothing to do with the church hurt – are still there. AND – the biggest issue I have is that the church, as enabled by the Holy Spirit, should be a place of healing and reconciliation – but we are so inept. Like I said, it’s disapointment that hurts the most. So, if I just lower my expectations, then it will be alright. Or so, I tell myself.
Thank you for sharing your story. Your experience makes so much sense. The disappointment in leadership combined with the love for the church family is part of what makes church hurt so tricky to navigate.
Thanks for the steps of healing, thru them, i can manage myself. But what matters a lot is the character of Church leader who causes Church hurt to parishioners.
I am destroyed by two different church’s my own n one that stold n hurt lied n abused mein all ways
Thank you for this! I resigned from my church leadership position because of this. Prayer and transparency in a culture of spiritual family created a culture of gossip for the sake of discipleship and growth. ‘Gaslighting’ was also a main M.O. from our pastor. It was a breeding ground for shame. Took me years to accept this was happening.
Thanks for sharing your experience. I’m so sorry you went through this. It can be so difficult to understand what is happening, as you say. I am glad you were able to find clarity.
Thank you! We went through a church culture that poured on the shame whenever people (other than the leaders) achieved anything! It wasn’t only the bad that was punished but also the good things. Jealousy and insecurity in the leadership drove so much harm. It makes it even harder when you being dealing with these things in young adulthood or when you are vulnerable. As you said, this conversation is so valuable to let other people know they are not alone!
Thanks, Julie. I am so sorry you went through this. I really appreciate your taking the time to share this experience in support of others!
Step 3…we did that without even knowing we were doing it well. I appreciate your insights and writings. Thank you for debunking that stupid meme that says if we are hurt by the church our faith was in the church not God. I despise that meme for so many reasons. I’ve loved quarantine for the lack of pressure to attend church….maybe I haven’t yet found my spot.
Thank you, Rachel. I hear you. I appreciate your honesty.
Thank you for this article.
I am a Pastor’s wife and have experienced church hurt within the last few years by another church leader and church staff member. I can’t put into words the pain I have felt and how insecure I became as a result. I can tell you I am not the same.
As I read this article, I felt as though I was reading about myself….you nailed it on the head.
It took a while before I had to remind myself that God’s character was not the same as the abusers! I am slowly on the way to healing through scipture and prayer and support of a Godly and loving husband!
Hi Cheryl, thanks so much for sharing a bit of your story. I am so sorry for what you went through and am sending love and prayers to you on your journey toward healing.
Thank you for this article it’s the first one I read that even begins to help . I have had so many negative church experiences … I can’t hardly be at church . It is such a source of anxiety and pain . I thought it was better but the same pains or association with previous pain is even more evident now than ever . I was told I’m bitter or that I haven’t forgiven , I feel like I have but it is so hard to navigate abs conquer the pain . I really am beginning to feel like I should step away from church and try to heal . Would you recommend not going or being part of a church for a while? God is so loving and patient with me and I continue to hope that one day it will be better … I would love to hear more from you any resource you might have out there .
Hi Lucinda, I pray for wisdom and healing as you navigate these painful experiences. If you check the Resources tab of my website and scroll down, you’ll see numerous counseling and support resources who can help. 🙏🏻
Thankyou for writing this. I’m in so much pain from my last church… it makes me want to hurt myself to escape the pain… I just can’t relieve it and fail to see how it could ever get better
I’m so very sorry for the pain that you are in. There is help out there. Here are some resources that can help:
https://www.dralisoncook.com/resources/
https://twloha.com/find-help/
Crisis Text Line: Text TWLOHA to 741741
National Alliance on Mental Health (NAMI): Text NAMI to 741-741 to be connected with a crisis counselor. Or, you can call 1-800-950-NAMI.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (24 hour support): 800-273-8255
What about the emotional abuse suffered by many pastor’s wives? Everyone who is a churchgoer knows there are lay people who have claimed “turf” in their particular congregation. When I was the wife of a new pastor, I couldn’t handle the catty comments about my looks and the way I dressed, what kind of mother I was, and even that I worked. My gifts were never properly utilized because someone in the church had already claimed that ministry as “theirs”. For instance, I got stuck singing in the really small choir, because that’s what was “needed” though I can’t sing a note. My husband and I ended up divorced. I have done a lot of growing in faith since then, and now I am a leader in the church I attend. And I would never treat a pastor’s spouse the same cold way I was. They are often more outcast than the outcasts.
In our church it was the opposite. There were few things anyone could do outside of the family members. The pastors wife told me because she was on the praise and worship team, I would not be able to be. Only married couples could usher. You had to be asked to work in different departments. I worked in the cd room until one day I showed up for my shift and the ministry had been shut down, door locked and no one had told any of us. In some churches, the church exists for just a few and everyone else is expected to sit quietly and politely clap. I am sorry that you had such a negative experience. I just have always been at churches where the pastors wife has basically the run of the place and everyone else just tries to find a little area to serve, in always a smaller and less significant role. Same for children of pastors. They basically get the head positions no matter what, qualified or not.
Had to move after divorce. No money for movers. Asked for help. After mult attempts, few friends came, spent 3 hrs pkg/hauling unloading. They were done, and thought that was enough. Others kept asking if I’d gotten moved yet. Even after paring down, what’s left of 30 yrs of stuff is still more than a couple of p/u loads. Felt abandoned! In a church as friendly as ppl think ours is, why was I abandoned? Just went thru narcissist husband/son abandoning me. I’m an empath, very caring/ wanting to take of ppl, make sure they’re ok. Not sure world is worthy of sticking my neck out for. Tired of wasting time on others. I’m a nurse, so I always put my self out for my patients! Now, w/ no retirement money, I’m being kicked to the curb. What did I do to deserve this?
Dr. Cook,
thank you for this writing piece. It was insightful. I’ve been teaching my weekly Bible class on “Church hurt”. I found your writing while researching this topic. This writing, you credentials that support it and your biblical insight have been a support to my class. Thank you again doctor.
Pastor Michael Beasley
I have read some of the stories and it hurts me that people could be so cruel. My problem seems so small compared to you all. My love and prayers will all go out to all of you even though I do not know you personally.
God doesn’t care. 2020 I begged him to change church cause I felt the rules were so rigid. It felt religious. He said stay. I did, fell in love with the church and adored everyone. And then I told the pastor something and he used it to preach every day. He undermined the fact I had the holy ghost and was insinuating I was a dead dinner. He would call the workers and share tracts for evangelism reachine he’d skip. I lost my love mlfor church. I scared me cause I hated seeing people pray, studying, talking about God. Why didn’t God let me go when I had the fire in my soul. Why watch me die. I want to pray but I can’t. I’ve realized that I hate God and the pastor is a devil
Grace, God did not do that to you, a person did. And please consider it possible that God did NOT tell you to stay, anymore than He would tell a woman suffering from ongoing domestic abuse to stay in the home so she can be even MORE abused. Even the church may tell her to stay to try to make him change, but the truth is he probably never will, and God knows that. Imagine an earthly father walking into his daughters home while his son-in-law is beating her up; she has bruises everywhere and a black eye, and the father tells her to just go ahead and stay, and does nothing to protect her or get her OUT of there. I personally don’t know any father who loves his daughter doing that. How much MORE does God, the perfect Father, love us?? I don’t think it was God telling you to stay, it was the enemy, but in your hurt and woundedness, you mistook the voice of the enemy, for Gods voice, which is what a spirit of control, “religion”, and manipulation can do, even to those that genuinely love God, and want to please Him. It can happen to anyone of us, so don’t beat yourself up over it. God loves you, always has, and always will. Turn to Him and pour out your feelings and your heart to Him, even if it’s anger that’s been bottled up, He’ll listen, without judgement, then He’ll show you what to do from here. One more time I’ll say it…God did NOT tell you to stay there. He tells us in His word to guard our own hearts, and He will not contradict His own word for anybody. Staying was not guarding your heart, it was further exposing yourself to wolves, even though you thought you were doing the right thing. (You are NOT the only Christian who made a wrong decision, or turned left when God said go right, believe me)…We see through a glass darkly sometimes., but as long as we acknowledge we made a wrong turn, and ask God to restore us and help us do better in the future, we’ll be fine….Sometimes God can do something extraordinary even through our worst mistakes…Maybe he’ll use you in the future to help people who go through similar experiences, by telling them what you learned the hard way…..Just know God is NEVER on the side of the abuser.
Grace, God does care and he does love you ! The hurt you feel is because someone in the church abused their authority over you, not God. Reread Step 2 of the article and realize what the church did to you does not reflect God’s character. Read the scriptures listed and ask God to speak to your heart about what you should do now. Also, Please reach out to one of the resources Dr. Cook lists. I’ll be praying for you.
It is evident that you are the one with church hurt.
Thank you for this. I experienced “church hurt” as a child. I was sexually abused by another member of the congregation, and when we went to the leaders of the church, they buried it. That was 40 years ago, and I’m only JUST NOW getting to a point where I don’t sit in the congregation with anger and resentment. What the church did damaged me in so many ways, and I’m only JUST NOW starting to recover from it, and it’s been 40 years.
Dr. Alison, what do you suggest for creating boundaries with a church?
The church I was raised in caused a lot of mixed emotions and pain, but it made up so much of my life. I’ve left the church , but because many of my friends still attend there, my social media is always a reminder of the church. I’m not sure what to do. I want to be happy that they enjoy the church, but my experience was very different. Should I unfollow them? Do I delete those programs? I’ve tried the latter, and it’s really hard to stay completely offline lol.
Any advice would be appreciated.
Also, thanks for everything you do!
I’m in this same situation. What did you do?
This is exactly what I am looking for to use at our Women’s Retreat. We have many new people at our church that have been hurt at another church in town. I want to help them heal through God’s Word. Can you recommend a good study or reference for a retreat?
Thank you for your words of encouragement. Our church closed just a few weeks ago. Our pastors were husband and wife team. Then by being the confidant of the wife I found out that the husband was emotionally and verbally abusing her, and his kids. It had really started before that as I could tell he didn’t want to be our pastor anymore. So I confronted which later he said he didn’t remember that. It got worse with an 18 month separation but they still were running the church together. More confrontations. Learning that he is a covert narcissist. And he would rather have a divorce and have the whole church close than take any responsibility for the whole thing. I’m glad his wife and kids are getting free. We all thought we were starting a new church 17 years ago , but here we are. Also the split in the congregation is terrible. The structure he set up in the church actually made it so no one could hold him accountable, so most of the congregation will believe whatever garbage he says. Just a handful of us know what he’s really like. It’s awful. I just feel lost and painful and can’t believe how people can act so two faced. I learned way more about narcissist, and gaslighting and abuse than I ever wanted to. I was amazed so many people in these comments have suffered so much. No wonder no one wants to go to church. I had no idea. I was one of the church leaders so I ended up doing a lot of the confronting. My heart breaks for all the people in our congregation that were abused on all different levels. Now I’m learning how to be hated and wondering how to get through all the pain.
I am late to the party. I just found this article and it really spoke to my church hurt. I went to the church for help with my struggling marriage. I was referred to a “Biblical Counselor” and was severely damaged by this person, who isn’t even certified or qualified for dealing with what happened in my marriage. My husband was physical with me during an argument, butting me up against the wall with his chest and putting bruises on my arm. I was essentially informed by this Biblical Counselor, supported by the pastor, that my “sins” were part of the problem. They also, without the proper credentials and experience, said we should separate for a time. While I agree with this in part, it was supposed to be under the supervision of a qualified person and was also supposed to be structured. None of this happened. I was blamed because of an “anger problem”. I spent almost 20 weeks with this counselor and not until I was shoved against wall was it ever mentioned to me that I have an “anger problem”. I have left that church, but my husband still goes there (we are still separated) – of course, because they validated him.
To Jayden Allison:
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve known of instances where the couple splits up because of something abusive that he’s done, but it’s she who has to leave, instead of him. He stays to butter up the pastor, all the while trying to look like the victim, and badmouthing her to other members. She leaves because she knows they’ll take his side, she’s seen that happen too many times, even though he’s the one that committed adultery, or was physically or verbally abusive to her or to their children. It must have been her fault, because “she wasn’t submissive enough”, or she was the nagging wife, but it’s very seldom that the male members, and even some females, actually believe it’s the husband that did wrong. If the husband did wrong, it’s assumed that SHE drove him to it. I know of a situation right now where the (ex)husband stayed put, in the church, never budging, and never being disciplined after flirting with younger women, leading up to an affair, (one the wife knows of, but there could be more), and it’s the wife that had to leave , because she knew they were listening to HIM, and not her, so why stay and subject herself to that? Now she’s trying to find a new church, and without a car, because he left her with nothing. I’d like to know, WHERE is the pastors discernment?? Not to mention the ones in the pews who can’t see clearly?
It doesn’t look like the author is responding any longer. But, it helped me to read this.
I’m grateful to hear that. 🙏🏻
I would like an open discussion on how to stop those those certain phrases that seem common in the church to stop hirting you. I have flashbacks all he time in church. I attend, I do it all still at another church but I still get flashbacks and certain phrases like “just trust God” or “I guess I’ve just been blessed” makes my my spine just shiver.
I have been through some very bad church hurt with some churchs. At one large church I was constantly looked at with suspicion. When I asked for pray from some individuals because I was dealing with some very unfair situations and attacks from unbelievers outside the church . They would pray scriptures that seemed harsh and didn’t apply to my prayer request. I did like this church and learned a lot from the sermons and classes I took, but still I constantly saw this looking down on others or being very untrusting of others. There were some other things going on that I thought was not healthy, so I left the church. Sadly, I went out of the frying pan and into the fire. The pastor and his wife as well as some very gossipy church goers in the new church openly trashed me and others within ear shot distance. They would act Godly one minute and throw mud on you the next. I stayed their for a year. The worst of this toxic behavior occurred in the last 3 months of me attending the church. I reached the point that while their were some sincere Christians there that overall I was in a wolf den and so I left. I have a rule if there are just a few rotten apples in a church-fine, I will endure and pray for them. However if this toxic behavior comes from leadership and/or it is widespread in that church then that is a huge red flag and I will leave that church. I understand approaching a pastor not acting right with 2 or more witnesses, but their are those who abuse their power are surrounded by their protectors and yes men and will make your church-life hell or chase you away and in addition will bad mouth you to that congregation and possibly to other local churches so that you are looked at as a problem if you start attending them. Why can’t churchs operate more in the Love of Christ and less worldly? It breaks my heart that this goes on in the church. Might I also add that I started my Born-Again Christian life in a cult which thanks be to God I broke away from 6 months later when I seen how controlling they were. I am sorry to say that I have seen some cultistish behavior in churchs and it is toxic and doesn’t belong in the church. Sorry for the long post, but I know no church is perfect and ofcoirse neither am I, but these experiences have done a number on me. I have prayed for deep emotional healing, but it is a struggle. Thank you for your post and reading this God bless you and everyone here.
I am so glad I found this post. I too experienced this sort of behaviour. I resigned and left. It’s been 2 hard and difficult months for me to process as this sort of hurt one do not expect to take place in the one place you thought should bring healing and a sense of belonging somewhere. Especially from senior pastors and the so called apoatle of the church. Up until now i have many questions such as “why the jealousy” are we not all gifted by God. Thank you for this article it gives me peace to know that i am not alone and that this sort behaviour is so evident in many churches. The scriptures shared here encourages me that God is not pleased with this behaviour. Thank you so much.
Thank you doctor Cook and everyone else. Sometimes we think that we are facing these problems all by ourselves until you learn other’s problems. This is such a relief to be on this website for the first time. I have suffered so much pain in different churches but believe me, the is nothing as painful as being hurt by the person you really thought they were presenting God in your life. This when we do not discern when the enemy uses our own brothers and sisters in the Lord to destroy us. It is the intentions of the enemy to cause us to turn our backs from our only source of life and truth, our Father in heaven. Some critics come come as a way to correct us but others of the way to bring us down. God will never want to bring you down at any point but will correct you in a loving want and according to what He already said in His word. Healing comes from God but it is up to me to pour out my heart to Him and be honest with Him because He already knows what happened and how I feel. Thank you for this article, Let us look into the truth of God in His word. Heaven and earth will pass but His word will remain forever, He cannot change, He is not a man. Replace all the hurtful words from the world by God’s word from the bible.
The hurt and hatred I received from my church pastor and his “yes men” has just about destroyed me. I have attended that church since I was a little girl. I was saved and baptized there. I held many positions and loved every minute of it. I loved working in VBS and Sunday School as a teacher. Every year in VBS I would teach the plan of salvation, this year alone, 4 children got saved. One is getting baptized this week but I can’t go back there. The pastor has treated us very harshly. We lost our daughter about 6 months ago and he just deserted us. It’s like we were invisible. He hasn’t spoken to me in a month because of an argument we got into. He’s ghosting us. He told us we should leave the church for a year to get counseling. We were getting better with the support of our friends in the church they were helping us thru the trauma. The pastor began to ignore me and would not allow me to do any of the church projects that I asked permission to do. He told me several members called him and complained about me. He’s in with a clique in the church and apparently the clique doesn’t like me. It hurts to be ignored by certain members of the church. I have taught in that church for 30 years, my husband is a deacon. I have never been treated like this in all my life. I’m devastated. My husband and I are trying to find another church. I’ve been friends with some of the members for years and years, they are our friends. I hate to leave the children I teach. My pastor has practically told us to leave. He is a toxic man. I see Satan working through him. He thinks he is immune to Satan’s influence, I told him that no one was immune to Satan’s influence except Jesus Christ. I guess I hurt his ego. I love my Lord Jesus Christ. I don’t understand why this is happening. my heart is so heavy. I leaned on my church friends to help with the shock of my daughters death. It grieves me to know that I won’t be with them anymore. Please say a prayer for my husband and I. Thank you and God bless !
I guess my story is that I really trusted our pastor and his wife and although there had been incidents that were definitely hurtful, I always gave them the benefit of the doubt and forgave them. I became treasurer in our church… newly formed church… and it all came to a head when I had to tell them they couldn’t do a particular thing. It was illegal. They took great offence and subsequently I was greatly encouraged to meet with them by an elder to sort things out. They came into the meeting looking for blood. The pastors wife, she was the womens pastor in the church, told me she didn’t care about me, or my family or any of my family issues or personal issues, I had no right to correct them. Well, I did, but I was so shaken by her reaction…. And I began to think I had been targeted for abuse by them both … fast forward 2 1/2 years and a friend that had been out of the church for a number of years, confessed to me that the pastors wife had twice come to her and basically told her she should not be friends with me. As I looked back and began to remember the many things that had been done… removal from doing coffee fellowship without talking to me, publicly shaming us for buying a home saying that we should have given the money to the needy, telling me I wasn’t allowed to be part of leadership meetings even tho I was treasurer, calling me a bean counter in front of 12-15 other women at a Bible study followed by the words… and nobody likes beancounters, right? Among many other incidents … I realized they had targeted me all along. I left the church, but my husband stayed. It took them a few months to realize and then the abuse began in earnest, trying to end my friendships, even those outside the church, and attempting to turn my husband against me. I’m so hurt right now and I have no idea where to turn for help. I have quite a few friends in that church, but I’m not sure I can trust anyone now, or what they have been told about me. I’m seen as a divisive person, when really, by leaving, I was trying to protect myself. I don’t know what to do.
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Thank you so much for explaining church hurt. I am actually a leader that experienced the hurt from leaders above and around me. You saying naming it abuse confirms what I have been feeling that it was spiritual abuse. Thank you for your transparency and the scriptures.